Ebb and Flow with the Seasons

The air is crisp and fresh with the faint smell of rain. Fall flowers are in full bloom. The leaves are beginning to turn yellow and orange, soon we’ll see red. My mama has put up little pumpkins and other fall decorations in the house, and the fireplace has finally been turned on. Things are feeling c o z y. We’ve definitely got some Hygge vibes happening over here! Fall / Autumn (is there a difference? I’m not sure…) is my favorite season. So many people hate when summer comes to an end but I look forward to it because September is just the best! I loveeeee seasonal changes.

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I’m 8 months pregnant and entering the last phase of this season of pregnancy. Just like the weather has subtly shifted here in the Harbor, so have I over the past eight months.

To ebb and flow… a recurrent or rhythmical pattern of coming and going or decline and regrowth.

It feels like we are all constantly in the midst of a state of ebb and flow. We’re apart of a big body of water with long days or nights you don’t want to come to an end. To ebb and flow like drops in the ocean. Some seasons of life feel like a calm and peaceful river, while others can feel like a freakin’ typhoon with stress or worries or just straight crap coming at you seemingly non stop with no time to catch a breath.

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As I begin to look back on the past eight months and think about where I started (including the first seven weeks I didn’t know I was pregnant) I was definitely in a state of decline. Working and creating that damn yearbook at my previous teaching job took so much of my time and ultimately, took so much out of me as a whole. I look back and feel sorry for myself because I was constantly stressed, ate like crap, didn’t sleep well, had no real routine, irritated and snappy, and was just barely surviving. That’s no way to be !! I physically felt like I was drowning. The waves were rough and I barely had my head above water most days. I remember last November wishing it was June but feeling like it was impossible for time to progress enough for me to get there. Now June has come and gone and that damn yearbook somehow got finished looking pretty nice, I had the wedding of my dreams, and now THIS November I couldn’t be more excited for what’s to come!

I saw that tiny light at the end of the tunnel but man, that was a loooong season. More recently, my life has transitioned into a new season of regrowth. Time to ebb and flow. New waters have rolled in and it’s time to grow just like the sweet baby girl growing and developing inside my tummy.

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Over the past eight months there has been so much change in my circumstances and in my heart. I’ve witnessed my body go through pretty incredible changes- some beautiful and some just hurt. I used to not sleep because of stress and now I don’t sleep because our baby is kicking me haha. I would rather have her kicks any day though! In the past eight months I would say I’ve grown in my ability to be honest, to be more intentional with the people in my life and spending time with Jesus. It’s great to be able to look back and actually recognize some positive growth in my personal development.

I was just saying to Nick last week how grateful I am for the NO STRESS I have in my life right now. I mean yes, the idea of birthing a freakin’ baby is quite stressful but let’s not go there haha. I just try to remind myself I am a WOMAN who was MADE TO DO THIS. SO LET’S DO THIS! That’s my little pep talk.

But really… since July my day to day has blissfully slowed down. I’m getting a lot of joy from all the books I’ve finally had time to read. I’m all about Danish lifestyle and parenting books right now. Also, no shame, but I love inspiring self-help books. I’ve got like 8 books checked out from the library right now so that’s probably the biggest stress in my life- finishing them all before they’re due! Lol.

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I am beyond grateful for the tides shifting and the currently calm waters. I feel at peace with the direction of life as I’m about to turn 25 this weekend. It’s easy to say now, but I do believe it’s so important to go through and ride out the waves that are hard. To go through the shit, hit your bottom, or feel like you are drowning… in some odd and divine way, purpose and growth can be found. God can always turn brokenness into beauty. Seasons comes to an end. Change inevitably flows it’s way to the surface.

Those are the thoughts for this Friday I suppose. Thanks for reading friends! xo


Prepping for Baby Girl- With Oils

Baby girl has been on the brain!!! The countdown to her due date is on and we're less than 90 days away! C R A Z I N E S S !!! This Sunday I'll officially enter my third trimester. She is kicking me all the time, especially when I'm laying down trying to fall asleep. I love feeling those kicks, reading Winnie the Pooh to her, and rubbing my belly with all the oils. 

I have entered major baby prep mode as of lately. Seeing as we are temporarily living with my parents (which has been so wonderful already) we've still created some space in the guest room for baby girl because we know we'll be here for a little bit after she's born while we're saving money for either deposits or a down payment... we'll see what God has in store. In the guest room we've got some closet space set aside and a six-drawer dresser that I've happily labeled. I feel ridiculous sometimes by how much joy organizing brings me haha. Anyway, this week I worked on putting together my postpartum care box (just to feel prepared after we get home from the hospital) and making rollers and sprays with essential oils. For baby girl I made a bedtime spray that I'll use for her bassinet/crib sheets, blankets, swaddles or jammies before putting them on her. My hope with consistently using these oils is to help create a strong bedtime routine. The main thing when using essential oils in general, whether for a baby or yourself, is to be consistent with them! In the past six months I've discovered just how true this is. The only oils I plan to use on or around baby is Lavender, Cedarwood, Gentle Baby, and Frankincense. These are all safe for her and will promote a calming or grounding feeling! 

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Sweet Dreams Spray Recipe 

  • Few drops of Cedarwood, Lavender, and Gentle Baby essential oil
  • Splash of Witch Hazel 
  • Rest of spray bottle filled with distilled water 
  • Cap it, mix it all up, and you're good to go! 

Baby Roller Recipe 

For babies you want to heavily dilute all essentials you use and put directly on their skin. For this roller I put in 2 drops of each oil, but you can decide what is best for you and your baby. 

  • Lavender, Frankincense, and Gentle Baby essential oil
  • Diluted with V6 oil complex (I use YL's v6 pump oil, but you can use any fractioned oil of your choice like coconut etc.) 

As I enter the third trimester I'm focused on walking, more healthy foods, less sugar (the cravings are real), taking birth/breastfeeding classes, and reading consistently to her so she can better know the sound of our voices. I also apply her baby roller to my belly so she can start to get used to the smell. I'm trying not to focus on the inevitable fear that creeps in when I think about actually giving birth and the whole delivery process... it's a bit scary! God is teaching me so much about trust right now. 

I would love to hear from other mama's what you did for some baby or delivery prep!