This past Wednesday was my last day of work at Mt. Spokane High School... such a bittersweet time! It feels like we made the decision to quit our jobs and move back to the west side just a minute ago, and now the reality of work being over is here.
Inevitably with yearbook and the school year coming to a close I've begun doing some reflection on my past three years at MSHS. I started with student teaching and was blessed to get hired after graduating Whitworth, and now have two years of teaching experience under my belt. Not long at all, but the lessons I've learned in that time are invaluable and I am grateful.
Ultimately, I've learned much more about myself... I learned what kind of person I want to continue pouring work and energy into becoming. How I care most about listening to people and making them feel heard and valued with where they're at in the moment. I learned to stop caring what others think of me. I learned what kind of parent I want to be when my kid is older (I experienced A LOT of examples of how I don't want to be haha) and how I'm not going to be that parent who just complains so their kid can get their way. Teaching Yearbook showed me I still procrastinate just as much as I did in high school and college, and deadlines are not my friend. Yearbook brought out the worst in me- a lot of tears, swearing, panic attacks, late nights dreading work and feeling all sorts of anger and resentment... not good stuff. Becoming pregnant helped force me to step back and not let the stress affect me. I am still learning how to handle stress better, but yeah, I don't think teaching Yearbook will be in my future again ;)
I recognized the days I was proud of the teacher I was and other days I left work disappointed and discouraged in myself feeling like I could never get it right. I'm sure it's normal and will always be a game of trying to get it right without totally losing your marbles in the teaching world.
I just remember back in November feeling like I was so ready for June and it felt like a lifetime away. Now it's here, the school year is over, I somehow survived, my wedding is about 20 days away, and I am just beyond ready for this next season of life to begin. I'm embracing all the current transitions. I shared earlier that this baby was not planned, but man, I am so grateful for this timing! Transitioning into becoming a full time mama is the best job I could ask for. I always had this picture perfect vision of the type of woman I would be before having a baby... but life isn't perfect, I'm only 24 and have plenty of time to figure it out... but also giving myself grace as I know I'll never fully "figure it out". Ready to enjoy these last 4 1/2 months of pregnancy and time just Nick and I before our world shifts and we're probably insanely sleep deprived :)
Well, time to go pack more and do another Goodwill drop off. Thanks for stopping by!